do you know what this means? this means i have to create something. i'm awake in the middle of the night and i'm starving for something. i want to exist. i want to shout and make the world hear me. listen to me. love me. notice me, but smile in a good way. i want to jump and land with graceful ease. could you know what this means? this means i have to sigh a good sigh. i have to breathe a deep breath. i have to smile on the inside and feel it leak out. i have to turn up the volume and dance OUTLOUD. i want to cry with laughter. FULL OF SOUND AND FURY! do these emotions only happen at 2 in the morning?! i want to leave old passions and find new ones! i want to tell you i love you and not think about the end result. existance gives me the chills but these tears feel so good. we know we're alive when we feel. i know i'm alive when i want to dive into something. i want to make something work. i want to run into you and press my lips against yours. god you're beautiful. dont tell me i'm something, whisper it in my ear and make me handle it. make me stay close. dont let me pull away. do you know what this means? neither do i, but it feels fucking amazing. -amanda