He doesn't call her anymore. She thought they were best friends. Daddy needs to stop being fake. She can't take it anymore. She's feeling an extreme over dosage of low self confidence. She doesn't think she wants to attend the dance anymore. She would rather stay home and sit on the couch watching a movie. She would rather not spend the night not wanting to dance (with scott) and wishing that zach would call. she saw zach today. she was very happy and excited. he is seriously wonderful. But she's almost sure that he has changed his mind and doesn't want to hang out with her anymore. He saw how ugly she was. She needs to stop saying these things to herself. She isn't ugly. She isn't perfect. Nobody's perfect. She needs to stop letting everything get to her so deep. She wrote a lot in geometry but there is no time to write it. She must decide whether she's going tonight and if she decides against it, she must text scott and tell her friends. They'll be disappointed but she could still spend the night at Tara's. [Edit]: The song "Naked in the City Again" by Hot Hot Heat really describes her friend. Says she's got it all. I don't wanna be the one to tell her that she don't. Late night, in a lonely city... So hard, she tries to look pretty. Boys don't even notice her though. She's in need of attention so... Lost and naked in the city again. Intoxicated by a quarter to ten. Lost and naked in the city again. Begging for a piece of their attention. She wrote: "It's what he does to her Even though she knows better She falls for him everytime And falls even harder when she gets hurt But this time is different She won't let him hurt her Because she already knows. I played card games in PE. I should have talked to David. Today is Air Guitar. Last night I talked to Michael a lot. He's quite the cool guy to talk to. I can see him as I sit in geometry. Through the blinding window. Why must I see him day after day and feel so much regret? I do believe it's because they all think I'm stupid. Oh my gosh. I just read that Matt is riding with us to Magic Mountain. It'll be a heck of a fun car ride. He has not yet learned the annoyance of Lauren as she flips through radio stations. I'm listening intently for bassoons as I "watch" The Incredibles. Andy played on the soundtrack. He's cool. Jealousy is a terrible thing. It really is." Today she had 28 minutes of each class and no band. So for an alternative she went to Mr Kellogg's to hang out with Greg and Tom and Evan and KC. During sixth period she followed Chris back to Mrs. Butler's biology class and that one guy is in his class. He's very cute. After tech lit she went to Air Guitar. Had Monster, 2 new twisty things for her necklace. Score. The talent show, air guitar, wasn't that bad surprisingly. Of course, it was hot and a bunch of girls were walking around in short skirts flashing everyone as they sat on the ground, but aside from that, a lot of the music was pretty cool. That's one of the few good things about her teeny-tiny school. After school Amanda came over and they walked to Buena (where Zach was spotted) and picked up Marissa. They went to the pool because of the heat and Skylar ended up being there too. So they had some fun while Amanda continuously talked about herself. It's really annoying and gets old quickly. Now she has just finished yelling at her mom because of what she is being reminded of and repeatedly saying sorry. She shouldn't have to say sorry. No one should ever have to say sorry. Because if they truly are sorry, they wouldn't have done it in the first place. She can't cry. She must keep these tears inside unless she doesn't plan on going tonight. If she goes, everyone will know. Just like last time. fuck