Amanda was always the prettier one. Amanda was always the more popular one. Amanda was always the happier one. Amanda was always the nicer one. Amanda was always the better one. And it seems to be going back to that. It all changed in high school. They were equal now. They both could get boyfriends (even if Amanda's were actually...well guys who weren't that bad and hers were...losers.) They both did well in school. They both made a ton of new friends. They both were relatively happy. And now it's all turning back into the old times. Maybe it's because they just got back from Anacapa (middle school) because they went to open house and she turned into Ms. Popularity again. Maybe it's because she's so self-conscious. Not like it matters anyway. Soon enough none of this will have to be worried about because they won't be together. Only 3 years. Today she was Sylvia Plath. Did an ok job. Read her poem aloud. Shook. It wasn't bad though. Sat in biology half-asleep, dreading the exam on Monday. Got a new piece in band which is pretty cool. Showed her pictures to people in tech lit, including Mr. Kellogg. They're pretty good on paper. They're like of...well random things and there's a few beach shots and stuff. Came home and took a nap. The fucking phone kept ringing and the dog kept barking. It was hell. Jocelyn called, said she heard that her audition went well. That's a shocker right there. She thought the audition was just OK. Nothing more. Hmm...maybe she does have a chance of making it again.