i woke up, deciding i wasn't going to audition. my parents said i HAD to. so i praticed after i got ready. i walked to the band room. i switched places with kris because he was bitching about how he had to wait for me and michael. bad idea. i came back an hour and a half later. he told me they were mad. hayley was auditioning. when it was my turn it started out with "we had to move all of this shit around because you weren't here." great fucking way to make someone who is already nervous feel even worse. alright 1st scale. shit. shit. shit. more. non-stop. he thinks that music has to be everyone's top priority. it isn't mine. i do it for FUN. not because i want to be a musician when i grow up. i'm not even majoring in music. that isn't even a fucking option. SO GET OVER IT. i came home and couldn't stop crying because of the way they made me feel. i'm still crying. and the only thing that makes me smile is what happened yesterday. how it happened. how amazing it felt.