new update.hmm. so basically every fucking time I think things have changed, I'm wrong. I go back to my old ways. My friends bring me down and make me feel like shit, without meaning to of course. Am I really that mean? I honestly don't mean to be. And I'm sorry. I don't want to go back to school. I don't want to see everyone. They don't want to see me. So I guess...Michigan was good. Details aren't needed. (Except that I got super homesick on Tuesday and that I had wonderful conversations with Alex and Myles and that Jacob, a 13 year old, is a pervert to the max). I got home late Saturday night and it felt real nice. The next day I went to the mall with my girlies. Then we saw the Dukes of Hazzard with Michael and I saw Nick at Domino's. I waved once, he waved. I came back, he said hi, I said hi. I was such a dork. I should have said more than that. Oh well. Umm...on Monday I worked at the fair. Selling funnel cakes is so much fun. On Tuesday I had an orthodontist appointment and then I went to the fair. We saw the wallflowers. On Wednesday I went to the fair with Marissa, Amanda, Stewart, Derrick (?!!!), Evan + Evan's girlfriend Saleena. She was really nice. And Derrick is really hott. We rode the Zipper together and he also asked for my number and such but I don't think it would ever happen. I had already met him at Stewart's party so I already knew him, but we talked a lot more after hanging out at the fair. I'm glad he went. Then I spent the night at Tara's. Her brother's the shizz. On Thursday we woke up and ordered pizza (around noon), set up our strawberry shortcake tent and ate pizza on the front lawn in the tent. Jeff came over cuz we couldn't eat it all by ourselves. Then I came home and had to babysit at 7 until like 1:30 in the morning. That was a fun experience considering I don't babysit...like ever. Today I went to Snapper Jack's with Tara and Amanda and then later I went to Marissa's where we watched Cursed with her brother. Someone was being really immature, someone whom I will not name, only because they wanted attention. This in turn, made me feel like shit. And then I come home to all of this crap and this loneliness. Fuckkkk. Tomorrow I'm supposed to be getting my haircut. I need to go shopping.Urban Outfitters awaits my arrival. So ummm...gosh why am I always so wrongwrongwrong about everything?? My brother's getting married which means I get a sister-in-law!!! I'm very excited. May 13. It's kinda far away. But still. If they have a baby then I'll be like a ...half-aunt. haha. so actually she's my half-sister-in-law. And I can't even remember her name...