on friday... she sat in the band room for about 15 minutes all alone. not knowing why. she could have easily walked home quickly. it was friday after all. but she couldn't make herself get up and leave. when she finally did, amanda came over. tara, amanda, marissa and her went to the mall for dinner. at california pizza kitchen they laughed, as they always do when they go there. they went to tyler's pool party. it was freezing. michael gave her a lecture about tampons and girly things. she loves michael so much. she's going to miss him in 2 years since he's graduating next year and leaving to go make something of his life. it was very awkward at tyler's party. don't know exactly why either. on saturday: she woke up late. marissa called. they walked to vons. walked to the salvation army & got adorable shoes for only 3 dollars. a car with 3 guys pulled over as they walked down telegraph and they just kept walking but the guys were talking to them. scary as fuck. they walked to the underground and bought a coffee ice-blended thing which was absolutely amazing, as usual. there was a majorly attractive boy working at the goodwill but it was no hope so she didn't even bother. they walked to joanne's craft store to buy buttons and a zipper for her new shoes and ended up going over to big lots. they bought matching bargain panties with winking smiley faces on the butts. photobooths are love. they put in 2 dollars but it said they only put in 1.75 so they waited for her mom to pick them up to give them another quarter. until then they took pictures with the digital camera. She really does love her Marissa. ♥ they went to tara's house to spend the night & matt and skylar came to watch movies. they watched the grudge (the japanese version) after lauren cried out of fright but reluctantly gave in because she didn't want to waste her mom's money. (her mom had rented it and it costs a lot at blockbuster nowadays.) she sat in the corner with a pillow and her sunglasses while the 2 couples fucked each other and amanda sat downstairs reading. no. marissa and matt were good. tara and skylar fucked each other. skylar stayed til 1:30. after the grudge was over they watched empire records & matt had to leave but skylar and tara went on the couch and were under a blanket. after skylar left, she really told tara. "You can't keep giving him what he wants if he isn't going to ask you out. He needs to DO something about this whole situation and you need to stop." She's really getting annoyed now. And Marissa's mom said Matt feels like he has to "compete" with her for attention. Fuck. How much further from the truth could she get? Matt doesn't even pay much attention to marissa because he's always all over rachel. She's so glad she's not a part of this. Just gets to witness it. English grade is going down down down. Fuck english. It's not like she'll need it for whatever she wants to do. She had more to say...but forgot. Amanda made a stupid remark about the cover of "under pressure" that the used and my chemical romance did. it wasn't cool at all. especially considering Amanda's so judgemental of each band & doesn't even take into consideration that not all of the songs sound the same. and that Amanda likes that "emo shit." whether Amanda wants to admit it or not. if Thursday isn't emo, then she doesn't know what is.