all i can do is sleep i'm not tired but i don't want to face anyone show them how disappointed i am in myself i'm hating everything but i'm still excited about everything i want to see how deep i can dig myself and still get away with it nobody knows me it's so funny they think i'm such a good clarinetest bull.shit. they think i'm so smart yeah.right. they think i take the best pictures look at someone else's. they think i'm so skinny tell that to my fat they think i'm so pretty ever seen me without make-up? i keep thinking about him i thought i was over him i should be over him but i guess... i'm not. for once i want someone to really know me, know how i act when i'm upset, sad, angry, happy, in love, everything, and still like me. still want to be with me. let me tell them my secrets. let me WANT to tell them my secrets. that's really all i want.