what's the matter with me? everything seemed fine. okay. nice. not bad. and now i'm crying??? why??? oh man. jealousy's a bitch. and i'd personally like to kick her ass. well haha. jealousy's ass + the chick(s) i'm jealous of. which is basically everyone. I had a perfect dream. Oh man. I didn't want to wake up. But you know, I obviously did, and then when you try to go back to sleep and you're thinking about where you want the dream to go, it just isnt the same. So I just got out of bed. I washed the car. Drove it too to move it. how exciting. you+me baby ain't nothin but mammals so let's do it like they do on the discovery channel ooh baby i'm obsessed with this song. "The Bad Touch" Bloodhound Gang yeasomaybenothingwillhappenbuticandream ........................................................can't i? lala.makeitgoaway. my father's day was not so father's day-ish. it was basically a day. like any other. and every other. consisting of my mother yelling at me. me not doing any summer reading for school. and myself looking like shit. i just want need my friends back. marissa won't be home for another few days.which puts me in a bad mood. because i know that when she eventually does get back, she'll want to see her boyfriend before she sees me. no question about it. sobasicallyineed$$ poor i have like 20 dollars which won't last a whole week which means i don't exactly know but i do know that my dream last night was terrific. drew broke up with abby. dumbass skylar suggested it was because he likes me only because i said i hung out with him on friday i said no because that would never happen they were so in love she's so heartbroken i feel so much sympathy for her she's a really great girl ahh but that's what those boys will do to you. that would be why i'm anti-boyfriend until i find one boy i like because i do that to boys and they do it to me and i don't think it should be a game like it is. i really really hate my legs i keep thinking about zach how much emotion i wasted on that asshole how often i stillthink about him in the same way except different because i don't want to be with him i don't like him but i still have the urge to talk to him but i'm too scared of his reaction he's stupid anyway. yeahhh. so i guess that's it. p.s.i think skylar was right.