Zach has a girlfriend. What the FUCK. That's what you get for yelling at her Just because she wants some scraps or attention she's just a cat she knows no better and now she lies at your feet dying. i will not make you say sorry for all those things you've done as i did with our poor dog but i hope you feel it feel the regret and mourn for her more than anyone. She stayed up all hours of the night reading, crying and lying on the hardwood floor. She woke up late. She's prettier after a night of tears being shed. Sometimes. She went to school in a bad mood. Smiled that fake fucked up smile. Finally had it with geometry and the whole "being ignored" situation. Walked back from band alone Violated more in tech lit. Saw hedgehog. Aww. so cute. Ryan gives amazing hugs, even if he is a head shorter. Walked home. In a bad mood. Last session of therapy. Wasn't worth the money this time. Didn't know what to expect. Received a hug. A hug that meant something. It was new. Finished homework and had sushi. Yum. Went to the German Show. Cute guy was there. He smiled again. Got a ride home with Matt. Mom got angry about that. Called her a selfish bitch. How was she to know the cat was almost dead? She sat on the floor, bawling her eyes out for everything ever said and done to poor sam. still crying. not going to read the biology assignment. not going to study for the poetry terms quiz. onomatopoeia. she can spell it. good enough. "My eyes burn from my make-up as I rub the tears away. My pillow will soon be drenched in salty tears and I will be too tired to wake up from this nightmare. I won't even bother telling Skylar & Tara & allow them to ridicule me for being so stupid. How could I let this happen twice? I mean, once, OK, but TWICE? No. Not acceptable. I will not tell my therapist. I will never allow myself to trust anyone as I once did. My stomach is in pain & I can see my insides twisting. Squeezing. It's so dark. Only the light from my Ipod." She really dislikes Skylar's sister.