this is why i don't rely on boys to make me happy. this is why i don't ever get involved. because it's close to impossible for them to do things right, to really make me happy. and i'm not saying, I HATE HIM THIS IS SO DUMB, i'm just saying, this situation is proving me right. and it's not like i won't give him another chance, because even if i didn't want to, i would. but it just isn't fair. it isn't fair that EVERYONE i'm friends with makes me sad. that everyone i'm friends with makes me want to not have them as a friend. that everyone i'm friends with makes me want to turn into a recluse. which basically, i guess i have been doing today. no, i was waiting. expecting that he would follow through, because he hadn't let me down yet. and i guess i was wrong. but maybe he just thinks that i'm capable of hanging out later tonight. maybe he forgot that i can't because i'm going to tara's. and my mom doesn't make any of this easier. i have absolutely nothing to do.