He was cute. Of course he had a girlfriend. And was heavily flirting with Amanda. Along with every other fucking guy they went with. But Lauren is used to this. Marissa and Matt were being cute together. Matt doesn't like Amanda. Matt said Lauren is his second favorite freshman. (Marissa being number one of course.) She likes being cool with these awesome junior boys. Haha he told her she isn't a bad singer. She laughed and told him not to encourage her. The whole day was quite awkward. She feels awful about Scott but she just doesn't like him. She's willing to stay friends of course, but nothing more. She thinks he got the picture. Oh how she wishes she could find the right guy. Nobody seems to be right for her. And it sucks tremendously. Watching Marissa and Matt today she realized how she wouldn't mind having a steady boyfriend. And next year when she goes to Buena, Tara and Marissa will have boyfriends and she will be alone. She still has Brooke. Brooke is awesome. Brooke will probably become her new best friend next year. She hopes they can hang out this week. Tomorrow is Tuesday...so why does it feel like Wednesday? This break is going to go by so quickly. School doesn't even feel like an option anymore. Her parents screamed at her because they were forced to wait for an hour while they got on X. Maybe if they had a fucking cell phone she could fucking call them and wouldn't have to get in so much fucking trouble. But they don't. Instead they like to fuck with her head. She was going to take a bath. She changed her mind. Lance said he was stopping by tomorrow. She's scared. She told him not to. to see you when I wake up is a gift i didn't think could be real to know that you feel the same as i do is a three-fold utopian dream. you do something to me that i can't explain so would i be out of line if i said "i miss you?" i see your picture, i smell your skin on the empty pillow next to mine you have only been gone ten days but already i'm wasting away i know i'll see you again whether far or soon but i need you to know that i care and i miss you. [Edit]: It's time for this. And never ever call her beautiful again. Just DON'T. meet the author