I have a lot to say. Because this week's been kinda wow. Sunday. Drew actually called me. I was so surprised. We talked but he had band practice and I had my SBYS audition. I felt bad telling him I couldn't come to his practice. My audition was not the best, but not the worst. And my tone was excellent. But on the ride home I was thinking so hard about what if tara made it in and I didn't. I'd be devastated. But it was nice just riding in the car with my mom. (We were getting along.) Later that day we watched this dumb video my dad's friend helped edit for CAPS6. In it they talked about roofies and my mom asked me what they were. It was funny, I would have thought she'd known. Monday. The element project was due in Chemistry. A lot of people had really shitty ones. But the girl next to me also had this project on the Gold Rush. She titled it "The 69ers" and then Joaquin was like, "umm...they're the 49ers" and she was arguing how it said in the book "69ers." She ended up feeling really gross and embarassed and Mrs. Lucas heard the whole conversation. She was laughing like crazy and she called it "...cute." In English I learned a new word I like. "Cacaphony." I like arguing with him sometimes because he's cute when he feels guilty. There was a firedrill in English too. Somehow Drew found me. But Tara scared him away. In Algebra there's this girl who sits behind me, Simone. She puts her feet on my desk, the little basket below, and bounces them up and down. It drives me insane. But there's nothing I can do about it. Symphonic Orchestra was absolutely dreadful, and it's supposed to be the best of the best in Ventura. I'm in for a fun year of hell. When I got home my dad told me Jan called, from Santa Barbara Youth Symphony. I made it in. I was happy. But I sorta expected it. Tuesday. The previous night I had a dream about Drew being really mad at me. It was scary. This was our 2 week anniversary. It really bothers me when people raise their hand and say "I have a question" before they ask the question. It's not necessary to say that because most likely the person you're asking figures you have a question if you're raising your hand, or they'll be able to figure it out after hearing you talk. Grr. In chemistry Joaquin and the 69ers chick were talking about Laguna Beach. It was really cute. But I also knew everything they were talking about it and it kinda made me sick. Afterschool there was a party at my house. Drew, Tara, Marissa, Jenna, Keshara, Matt and Skylar all came over. Tara and Jenna took a shower. Skylar and Drew made out. I made out with Jenna. And yeah...wow. It was this huge orgy-fest. And I liked it. : ) Today. I totally bombed the chemistry test. I felt so stupid. Plus I didn't have a calculator. Motherfuckerrr. I totally aced the history quiz/test/educational activity. I always find the dumbest ways to make Drew mad at me. But then he ends up not being MAD at me. But he makes me feel so guilty about it. In band we had elections. I was almost made historian. But I don't think I woulda been able to make the powerpoint at the end of the year. My boys left me. And so did Marissa. MArching band went to LA. I was sad. Tara and I were alone. In dance we had Amy. I like her. It's so much better with a real dance teacher. Really. I came home, did chores, ate and watched Comedy Central Presents. I love women comedians. Her name was Vanessa something-or-other. And she was hilarious. I slept. I did my homework. I ate. I finished my homework. I'm here.