I don't think I have ever felt so self conscious in my entire life as I did when I was standing there talking to Devon and Amanda. Maybe it was because I was wearing a skirt, something I don't do often, or because I still like him and I don't want to admit it. And even if I do like him, nothing will ever happen because him and his girlfriend are inseperable. And I don't like him anyway. I just want things to be how they used to. one, dahdahdahdutadut. it's stuck in my head. and now "dance dance" by fall out boy will be again. for some reason the yellow submarine was earlier. amanda was asked out yesterday by this way cute guy and she said no. tara said he's really nice too. haha. figures. someone her friends like and she won't go out with him. i just feel like i'm missing something right now. i know the family situation sucks, as usual. and my friends, well we're all getting along so well, it's wonderful. i'm still doing excellent in school. and i don't like anyone and am perfectly happy not having a boyfriend. so what am i missing? i don't know. well i have homework.