everything is getting all fucked up again. i thought i was over all of this. i guess not. and i really wish i wasn't crying right now. and i really need to tell someone who can help me with my problem. not my stupid mental issues, but my real problem. Daniel Brenner is the biggest asshole I know. "So how are you liking those solo parts?" says he in the most sarcastic tone of voice he can come up with. Ok DUMBASS just because I got lost doesn't mean you have to be a dick. And besides, who here is getting paid $180 to play in an orchestra? oh wait, that'd be ME. So many people have told me I look like Rita and I just don't see it. But today I sent her a message if people tell her she looks like me too. She said yeah and she doesn't think we look alike either. It's pretty silly. Last night I went to sleep so early. Like 8:15. I planned on waking up again but I only did so I could turn off my computer. I had a lot of weird dreams. They just didn't stop. And some were really scary. Tomorrow's the last school day of the week. Yesss. But I'm really busy this weekend. Thursday: JV game, mall and...maybe a movie with Michael S. Friday: ...and the wedding rehearsal. Saturday: PSAT, wedding, maybe the concert. Sunday: rehearsal 1-5, rehearsal 6:00-8:30. Monday: Concert at 7:30 in Lompoc which means I won't get home til like 12 which means I might not have to go to school on Tuesday. "Mom, Tara and I had sex when she was on her period and she thinks she's pregnant but I told her she couldn't get pregnant on her period. Who's right?" Lol. Funniest thing ever. Except for the phone conversations I have with Stewart. I want to die. One.More.Day.