I never wrote about what happened for the rest of the weekend, mainly because the entry I wrote got deleted by my clumsiness. Anyway...so we went downtown. Boy came up to me. Boy started talking to me. Boy scared me. Boy left after telling me to come over to where him and his friend were. I fled to Amanda. Amanda + I exited the building. We found this amazing little store. All handmade clothing and accessories. Bought a change purse for only two dollars! We were walking to wild planet. Boys saw us from across the street. We saw boys from across the street. We went inside, thinking they wouldn't follow. Five minutes later, boys are starting a conversation with us. We find out that Boy is Jacob, from Stewart's Party. The one who attacked me on the trampoline. The one who was practically having sex on Stewart's bed with his girlfriend. The one who kept flirting with me, in front of his girlfriend. Jacob asked for my number. His friend's name was Cody. We hugged them good-bye and were off to meet my parents for sushi. After about a two hour dinner we went to the movies. We had to wait an hour and 45 minutes before the next showing though. My parents weren't happy about us being alone downtown at night. So we went to the busy bee. I dumped the water. I felt stupid. The boys came. I asked what Cody's last name was. He said Ferguson. I started laughing. Amanda started laughing. This is the boy I used to be "in love" with. This is the boy Christine introduced me to. This is the boy who I gave my recycle bin keychain to so he could put his weed in it. This is the boy she thought hated her. This is the boy whose friend tagged her leg. And now this boy is her friend. So we went to the movie. I was a slut again, hooked up with Jacob. Just making out. Nothing more. Because I've never done anything more. And why would I want to give it away that quickly? I wouldn't. So I spent the night at Amanda's house. Had to check for hickeys. Almost got one too. Amanda told me I had one, but in the morning nothing was there. We went to Tara's and went swimming and tanned and it was fun. That night we had SBYS. Do you know how much pain I went through on the ride up there? Sitting in that backseat of whatever kind of car that is, HURTS. I was let out an hour early. So I went to the fountain to read Romeo + Juliet. I stopped because I didn't want to get ahead for class. So I turned on my ipod. And danced. Like nobody was looking. Because, I believe, nobody was. I sang. Like only one person was listening. I smiled. THinking about a certain someone from Ojai. I walked around the fountain. Fixing lost balance skills from modeling. And then Tara came. Which I didn't so much mind as I thought I would. We danced. Together. We sang. Together. We walked around the fountain. Together. On Monday I was invited to the park by Cody and Jacob. I didn't smoke with Cody. I did make out with Jacob. It was nice. To be around new people. To not be surrounded by girls. To not really have to worry about what they thought of me, because if they hated me, they wouldn't be there. To hear Jacob tell me I'm beautiful. To find out that Cody used to like me too. To be able to tell my mom where I was and have her not get mad. To not have any worries, except that it was cold. But now. Now Jacob doesn't stop. Texting. Calling. Leaving voicemails. Wanting to hang out. Calling me beautiful. It's too much for me. We aren't going out. We just have fun. And I think he knows that. Yesterday I stayed home from school because I was sick. I still am. It was nice to get some rest. Watch TV. Relax. But then my mom and I went to dinner. And of course that includes her spending money on me. Kohl's. Two pairs of shoes. Pants that are too long. Underwear. Socks. Animal Cookies. Sushi. Today I went to school. I can't stand listening to him read lines from Romeo+Juliet. So monotone. And he thinks he's good. That's the worst part. And the other one just tries too hard. He can't read words. In biology we presented our thing-a-ma-bob. At least it's over with. Next week we're dissecting. I'm excited. I stayed at Buena for lunch and hung out with Brooke. Never did say hi to Johnothan. In tech lit I was confused. A lot. Carrick was raping me again. I think I need a restraining order. He's lucky I adore him. Most of the time. Hmm...came home. My key wasn't attached to the keychain. Because I took it off on Monday. So I had no key. After many attempts, I finally made it over the gate. Painful. Scrapes. Then I had to fit through the dog door. Which is only big enough for a very large cat. But I managed. No bruises this time. I tanned. I took a nap. I started a book. I took another nap. I'm excited about PE tomorrow. BEcause I'm going to have more conversations with David. And he's really cool. And I have the slightest crush on him. But he's a senior so I won't do anything about that. I hope Taylor comes on Friday. That'd be cool. I hope I get to hang out with Max + Reid + maybe Charly. That'd be cool. I hope our adventure happens and all four of us (me, rissa, amanda, tara) take part in it + nobody ditches it for their boyfriends. That'd be cool. I hope I see the ocean this weekend. That'd be cool. I hope we have a sleepover and make cheesecake (like planned) and no boys are allowed (like they told me) and we don't argue about anything and we rent movies and have fun. That'd be the best.