ok so like, i can't do anything until i figure this out. and i'm never going to figure this out. does drew like me? marissa sure does have a way of making me believe he doesn't but tara makes me believe he does. and so does drew. he's constantly grabbing me and pushing me and hugging me and it's so unlike him. he was never like this. marissa says he's like this with a lot of girls but i really haven't seen it. and like what happened with sara? i want to know honestly. because i was told they kissed but like, doesn't seem like any relationship's coming from it. and even if drew does like me, i'm still hoping and wishing nick will come around to his senses. except he never will. he did say "hey!! it's lauren!!" to me and do the thing that amanda's brother always does with his fingers. and we wave all the time. just not much conversation. but even if he ever did come around to his senses, i still would have a thing for drew. and i'm just so confused. and i hate my classes because i don't know people and it's dumb. and danielle told me zach nelson said i was stupid. because she used my name when she asked him about what i told her. but i haven't even seen him at school yet so i don't think it'll matter. he's dumb anyway. i need to get my head all straightened out. i love my dance shoes. they're actually jazz shoes. they're wonderful. Erin's in my dance class too but I've never talked to her until today. She's cool. I'm in with the cool kids in this class. Lol. grrrrr and oh man i can't wait til this weekend.