This whole situation is only making me stronger. I'm more mature than them, which means I'm winning already. I have friends who aren't going to leave my side, ever. And that's a lot more than they can say about each other. First, whoever "the truth" is. If it was just some douchebag like Tyler fucking around, then whatever. I don't give a shit. But if it was someone who had intentions of ruining everything, then I'm pissed. I don't think I'm ever going to know though. Oh well. Second, say your bullshit to my face please. kthnx. Third, quit lying when I confront you with a question I already know the answer to. Don't play stupid because it gets you absolutely nowhere. Fourth,be scared because on Monday we might just beat the shit out of you. If I were you, I wouldn't even hang out there anymore. Not after what you did. No. That's just really dumb. If I had sex with a boy who was a girl I hung out with's boyfriend, I wouldn't show my fucking face around there again and expect to not get fucked up. And the boy, the boy, the boy. I got him to leave me alone while this all blows over because I can't deal with him right now on top of this. He's going to pray for me. Helluva lot that'll do. I refuse to consider any of them my friends anymore. Not like I ever really did with some of them, but you know. I really went off on my mom today. On so many levels. But not because she's pissing me off. Because I told her EVERYTHING and I can talk about this in front of her and just vent and scream. And I wish that some people would stop being so selfish. Well Marissa. And if any of the bitches who read our livejournal are reading this too, HI!!! HOW THE FUCK ARE YOU??! Yeah, go ahead and tell Marissa what I just said because she already knows. We were on the phone and I just started getting mad at her because I was so sick of hearing her shit. She complains about things I deal with every single day and I have for years. She's never slapped her mom. She doesn't know what it's like. She thinks it's bad when she gives verbal abuse, honey I know what it's like to feel so bad that you lock yourself in your room with your lights off and try to smother yourself with your fucking pillow until you almost can't breathe and then you let go and realize you're still alive and it's still real. So I guess the secret's out too. I take pills more than I should. WOW. I know the little Aleve bottle says "don't take more than 3 in a 24 hour period" and I take 4 at a time. But honestly, I'm still here. Sometimes it makes me pass out, but I've become so immune to it, it doesn't even do much anymore. But anyway, if I get any little anonymous comments saying shit, I'm just gonna delete them. So don't even bother. I feel so bad for Tara. That she has to go through this. But she was so strong tonight when she talked to Skylar, I'm really proud. And I'm really glad it's the weekend because I need it. I'm going to sleep all day tomorrow and then go to Barnes + Noble hopefully. I pulled a muscle in my leg yesterday in dance and it sucks a lot because I can barely walk right now. I've never pulled a muscle and had it hurt this long before and this bad. I'm done bitching. edit::: p.s.hahahahaha so eric graves and I talk online and stuff because we have history together but he had to get offline so we were just texting each other. and he was like "okay well call me and tuck me in and say good night" so I actually did. it was really great. he was like "I didn't actually think you'd call because you said you never call people." we're gonna hang out sometime & i absolutely love it because he likes his girlfriend so much so things wouldn't be all crazy and omg it'd be great having a FRIEND.