i looked at this from a different perspective, and although i may still have tears running down my face, it really isn't going to affect me much more than it did today. by tomorrow, i'll have new problems, new ideas, new emotions. and things will be ok. and i realized, i'm not going to be selfish anymore. and i'm not going to disagree with people when they call me pretty. i'm going to say thank you. i just made a mix cd for my gurlz. a cd they can listen to when they're depressed and just want to cuddle in bed all day and eat everything in the kitchen and take a warm bath and cry their bloody eyes out and throw things and kick doors and basically just admit to themselves that life is over. it feels so much later. maybe cuz i've been in the dark all day. and i wanna talk to him! and i need to yell at stewart for his actions yesterday. find out what was goin on in his head. i wanna watch a movie. but not by myself. come over and cuddle with me!!!!