i wake up at 7:30, leave at 8:45, do...various musical things at MERIT, eat shitty food, eat more shitty food (if i dare), do more musical things (usually involves listening to clarinet concertos in the library, yummy), come home, sleep, eat dinner, sleep some more, go online, go back to sleep and back to the beginning. the shane west lookalike mentor is really starting to get to me. he's just so damn cute. and so damn old for me. and he said HI to me today. so rachel and i started freaking out. when he coached my group i nearly died. literally couldn't take my eyes off him. there aren't any cute guys in the actual merit program, which i'm guessing is a good thing for me. there's one guy who's kinda cute, but not like paul. paul was exquisite. i miss paul. i've been messaging this kid on myspace and we were laughing about what it would have been like if i had kicked some girl's ass at warped tour. the preppy ones were really getting to me because they wouldn't stop complaining. if you're gonna go to warped tour, don't complain about how many people, the type of people, because honestly, nobody cares. i'm being told to go to sleep. i hate sleeping nowadays, at night I mean. usually i think about something before i sleep, but lately there's nothing to think about. oh well. taylor's so cute.