Last words spoken: "God I hate talking to you!" Spoken by Lauren's mom. Spoken as she stormed out of Lauren's room. "Why can't you just be normal??!" "Because I'm not normal!" What the fuck. If Linda wants her to be normal maybe she shouldn't stop paying for therapy. Maybe she should be home more. Maybe she should quit blaming everything on Lauren and calling her a bitch. She thinks she's going to cry. Her birthday is in exactly one week. 15. Nothing is planned. But her mother doesn't think that. She thinks that every plan Lauren makes has something to do with her birthday. "Well I can pay for your friends to see a movie or go to dinner." "It's stupid though. It's not for my birthday so it doesn't matter." ...discussing who would go to dinner (as her mom still thinks it's for her birthday) "It'd just be Amanda, Marissa, Tara, Brooke, me, and skylar and matt would probably go too." "why them?" "Because they're the only two who have girlfriends or kinda-girlfriends in our group." "Well what about Scott?" She broke into hysterics. "No. Not scott. why is it always 'what about scott?'!!!!" "well then why did you invite him to your concert? don't you like him?" "no." "don't be so hard on him." "I DON'T WANT TO LEAD HIM ON!" "how hard was it to say that?' "whatever." Tara earlier had said how Scott seems like such a cool guy. He's not. How come nobody sees what Lauren sees? Why are they all so fucking ignorant? Or maybe it's just because...she's not normal. Whatever. Tomorrow night Brooke and Marissa and Tara and Amanda will hopefully spend the night. Take her mind off of things. They might go to dinner and see a movie too. The dinner might be for Lauren's birthday. Maybe the movie will be too. Most likely no because Marissa and Matt & Tara and Skylar will just end up sucking each other's faces off during the movie. What a wonderful birthday present. Three best friends & one friend who she's just getting to know better fucking for her birthday! And she gets to witness every minute of it! The list of cds she wants is extraordinarily long. She needs some money. Fast. She thinks she'll go wash the car now or something. It's probably too late. Whatever. How come things can come crashing down minutes after reaching nirvana? The power went out as her dad was working on the house. She doesn't like when the power goes out. At all. Today had to be the most boring day of her life. She sat here. She organized her fucking closet. She cleaned her room, as her parents told her to, and when her mom gets home she immediately sees it and asks "what do you want now?". Why can't she do things for her own reasons? There always has to be a gimmick. But there isn't. They told her to do this. So she did it. She's losing sanity.