i love u guys all very much..but come on, its just HAIR. NOT a big deal. enough my mom is sitting here whining. i really dont know what to do with the woman. sometimes at night when shes really fucked up, sh starts calling me her mama and shes like 'im your baby!' and then i have to kinda get it in her head that she was the one who gave birth to me, not the other way around. she told me shes gonna bite my head off now and all this other stuff if i dont stop drumming (typing). of course it sounds a lot better in russian but lets not go there. i think summer plans are pretty much done. im not sure if i have any free weeks which isnt really the SeX but what can u do. i think the weeks are in clumps: (june 18th) 2 3 1 2 there are some people i really wanna hang out with over the summer. then again, i dont even talk to them much in school so i doubt thats gonna happen. i hate it when i start being friends with someone i think is really cool and we hit it off and everythings good and then it doesnt work out. why does that happen so often? if people werent so fucking shy all the time (including myself) and they stopped caring about whether or not they looked stupid, or worrying about whether or not the other person is judging them, things would be so much better. i hate drifting away from people...especially before the REAL friendship started. ok im done with the sap hmmmm. oh. today, im gonna talk about that. i wore my pointy shoes. yea i did. BAD mistake. thats cool all u asians who wanna go ahead with the foot binding but whooaa mama that shits just NOT for me. my poor feet. i wanna soak my feet in a foot soaker but i dont have one. so maybe im gonna put them in the bathtub? what do u think. yes, i think ill go do that. but first i gotta put my 'daughter' to bed.