its like 2 30 in the fucking morning and as usual, im not sleeping. this is becoming problematic because most people do need sleep to survive but who really cares right now. chrissy threw me at least 20 cds and i plan on uploading all of them onto my computer tonight. we went to incubus earlier in the night and due to the respect i have for a certain individual, the public will be spared details of how the night was spent. but never mind it was fun either way. im liking how this entire summer has consisted of nothing but europe, me being home for a few concerts, europe again, more concerts, and me leaving again in a few days...and me being ridiculously happy. except for a few sad moments during which i pouted in a corner for 5 minutes and then got over it. i fucking love it. well now im getting a bit upset because of the problems im running into with my housing, mainly because rutgers has a gigantic stick up its collective ass, i really hope i dont talk like such a faggot in person its just that i really dont want to live with dagma isaac in douglass with all of the lesbians of the new brunswick area. i have absolutely nothing against lesbians, i have wanted to be one at random points of my life, its just that i want to live somewhere thats not in the middle of east bumblefuck and isnt.....lesbians. yea i sound like a homophobe. welllllllll theres nothing i can do about that i want to go back to spain, i miss my espanish frriends. i made plans with about 2 illion people to meet up before i leave again and not like any of them are actually going to read this but if you do, i apologize in advance for not being able to follow through and blowing you off. its not that i dont want to see you, im just bad with promises. and because everyone is gay and sleeping im going to chronicle the hilights of the summer... june 20: graduation june 22: seaside with some random individuals in a random ass location with some random...um june 28th-july 16th: estonia, latvia, lithuania july 19th: TIESTO at hammerstein, water poisoning is always fun JULY 21ST! harry potter #7, hilight of my summer im not even going to lie to you. july 25th: 311 at pnc, me being pissed that im sober and surrounded by drunken assholes JULY 28TH! rock the bells. so many ridiculous moments i cant cover them all. sweaty men, heat exhaustion, walking around the new york city subway system barefoot. july 29th-30: jamies birthday. if i detail the events of this night theres a possibility of me being taken away in handcuffs. FUCKING ridiculous Aug 1-9: spain........fucking amazing spaniards and their red vodka, their long periods of sitting on the beach and doing absolutely nothing during which i became a restless mess because its impossible for me to sit still. ayy espannnna i am in love aug 10: incubus...not really much of an event but who the fuck cares hm what else. ap tests turned out to not be a waste of my life i got credit for 4 classes. most people say finish school in 3 and a half years, i say do absolutely nothing this year as a continuation of the end of senior year and spend college with class as a vague option. ha thats such a joke, we all know that im going to become a nazi when school comes around. i will bust out the math no doubt spain really did make me fatter. not really fatter but just like when we were in the baltics, my mom commented on how yet again my ass has now expanded to twice its size. she says it like its a bad thing but i am happy about this new development more exciting adventures to come, including my bonding session with palmieri during which we will drive to dc and then throw away the rest of our already dwindling supply of brain cells. however, the guilt from being so careless with my brain has driven me to read a lot this summer as well as play hours of solitaire and sudoku in an attempt to stretch out my mind again. oh and my obsession with everything leopard has now reached disgusting proportions to the point of telling some random drunk bitch that i like her leopard boots and buying a leopard skin for my lap top. actually its a lot worse than that. and my new bed is so sexy im considering waiting a year to go to college just so that i can spend another year in my big girl bed doing jack shit like so many people i used to know have done with their stupid lives.......JUST KIDDING! no im not. i have mcdonalds peace