im just so let down by our country right now. i dont even know what to say. we're going to be led by that moron for another four years. im scaerd for teh future of our country. i can SMELL apocalypse in the air. kind of. and that is my biggest fear. i have nightmares abotu it. im so scared. and im also completely appalled by the fact that only 17% of people aged 18-24 voted in this election. are you kidding me? i will be sprinting to those booths the second i'm able to. and kerry would have won if more teens voted. theres so much more to say, but whats the point. people obiously dont get the message. and for the obnoxious people who feel the need to rub it in the faces of democrats, fuck off, we dont need that shit right now. seriously, im so completely let down. oh canada.. im also obsessed with elliott smith. something about his songs is so desperate and urgent and completely beautiful. its a very sad thing, but also one of the most beautiful things at the same time. i love it love it. i wish he was still living. and i love the way he sings this: "if you get a feeling next time you see me do me a favor and let me know cuz its hard to tell its hard to say oh well, okay" oh wel, anyway, i love the english. yesterday, i saw about a boy, and today i saw bridgette jones' diary. both with hugh grant. hes so great. hes so english. and colin firth. o god. and theyre all around 40. what is it with me and older men? its really a bit sad. i WILL move to england. i'll be able to say "sod off" or "bugger off" and the like. i feel so...bizarre. like i have no place right now. its not in a bad way, im just always walking around and i cant seem to find anything to occupy myself. i miss laura, i want to visit her this weekend but i dont know if i can. shit on stick