im sad, i hate it when plans fall through. and it keeps happening now. oh well, i guess everything thats supposed to work out will. i saw ella enchanted today. it was a cute movie, i like magic. magic is soooo cool. i would be all up in that shit if i had magic. they sang 'somebody to love' in the movie, and i wanna find meeeeeee somebody to love. really badly. but im sure ill find someone and then get sick of them right away. i dont think ill ever have a real relationship in my life cuz im so fucking ADD about relationships and liking people. its got to stop. in any case, if i had SOMEBODY TO LOVE, we'd make that magic happen, k. i feel shallow, but i really like hot guys. theyre so nice to look at. in movies, it could be a terrible movie, but it just makes me feel like all is well in the world if i have something pretty to look at. of course, im pretty sure im not shallow when it comes to real people...i dont think i am...?? whatever after scarfing down sushi, fish, and whatnot, turnip and i decided that our fat asses needed a walk. so we sat on the little swingy chair for about half an hour to decde where we were gonna walk. and really, after talking about walking for so long, we actually felt the calories jumping off already. but anyway, we finally decided on blockbuster...and for some reason got a ride there. but from there, we walked to a&p and decided that there would be no better time than right then to buy some fruit. and ice cream and cookies. the ice cream: we stood in front of that stupid aisle for like 20 minutes reading all the nutrition info on every fucking carton. i was remided of all the early morning runs to store 24 in which the inhalation of certain illegal substances caused extreme hunger amongst many of the residential students. fuck........KJHDSLHSDh:AKh;kaehlskdfhlkwjhfklahf;kHhdl khSD hjfkJHARoIWY. the point is, im pissed, and i hate when things like that happen, and i cant even write about it cuz certain people who are too uptight and take themselves waaaayyyy too seriously might see this. gr. ah yes, but then the a&p shoppng was done, and we walked along a cemetary. those freak me out. i feel like a dead person is gonna jump out and grab me by the shoulders and shake me or something. now we're here, about to eat fruit. oh yea, and i also had a dream in which i was hugged by stalin and bossa nova was playing in the background. this scares me. could this be an indication that i am possible in cahoots (sp?) with some underground stalin organization without even knowing it?!? right, so im not drunk, i havent been doing anything wrong, so i dont understand why i sound like a fucking lunatic right now. and i know that my latest entries have been really long, im trying to cut down on them, its not as easy as it looks, i know i sound like im talking about quitting smoking or something equally gross off to eat fruit