by my standards, i havent updated in a while. i have a feeling this is gonna be a long ass entry. yesterday, i went to a bar mitzvah. i hate it how the "kids" get the shitty food. i remember when i was of bar mitzvah days, i was so young 2 years ago. meh. the point is, i got a lot of glowy stuff and stuff that lights up. that should keep me happy for a while, until the batteries die out and thatll just depress me. i love the party dancers. the guys are so hot..even if theyre not really hot..just because when guys dance like that is so fucking hotttttttt. ah bah pah la salkhdsa! right, so i watched the rejected video again today. im happy that i was introduced to it. so fuckin awesome. "tuesday's coming, did you bring your coat?", "i am a consumer whore!" "and how!", "MY ANUS IS BLEEDING!" ...and shit like that. yezzuh. im pissed off at my dad. he doesnt care about all the effort im putting into school this year. what the fuck man, im fucking doing all my work PLUS extra in every class, i dont have any time to watch tv, i hardly go online cuz i spend all my fucking time working, and all he cares about are grades. ok, well what if we find out that i am, in a fact, a retard, and that all the work in the world wont make me get great grades. then what? IM SORRY BUT I DO THINK IT FUCKING MATTERS THAT IM WORKING MY ASS OFF. BITCHASSMOTHERFUCKINGWHORE FATHER. feels good. im suddenly in the mood for an ipod, or something similar. ha, like hell my dads gonna spend 500 dollars on smoething we know im gonna break within a month of purchasing. i still want it though. i want all my muzak in one place, so i can maybe..find it all!?! oh wow, that would be cool. firsts are fun, im happy. i think i administered the..um. in correctly, but thats ok i guess. i saw the talented mr. ripley (JUDE LAW GAGAGAGA), followed by y tu mama tambien (DIEGO LUNA..FUCK ME) this weekend. jude law...i was a bit upset at the lack english accent in this movie, but i still love him. he was a god in this movie, he really looks like a god. i feel bad for him though, because he's actually one of the amazing hollywood actors right now, and he doesnt get enough credit for it, because everyones so focussed on how he looks. of course, its not too much of a disadvantage because everyone wants to fuck him whether or not hes a good actor, but hey. y tu mama tambien was such a hot movie. i was so turned on but i was pissed off though, cuz they showed diegos and that other guys teeny weenies, but they couldnt actually show the sex. what the fuck. thats just annoying. why are u gonna show us the dick if we're not gonna see it working. wow. some people might not be familiar with that side of niklof. oh well, fuck yea i also had this really weird dream a few days ago. im not gonna go into detail, but now im kinda scared that im a lesbian. but i would know if by now if i was right. ok good. im not a lesbian. i hope. damnit. wow im stoopid. im slightly apprehensive in saying this, but i have the feeling that a certain failed friendship might just work out this year. fuck i probably just jinxed it. bah bah bah my mom just retold me my favorite story of how i shat in her hair when i was 9 months old. she bent down while she was changing me and i took a dump in her hair! and then she finished changing me with the shit on her head. i think thats that funniest thing evAr. speaking of evAr, i miss turnip. i love u sex kitten :-( i also saw mary from north carolina. shes pretty much the only person that i dont want to stab after they say "y'all" and "darlin". i think shes gonna fly back here and visit for a few days, during which a trip to NY will be included, so hopefully i can reunite with lauritta, ana, and jess (this time, it better happen) somewhere in la ciudad. The scarlet letter sparknotes are a-waiting poop