so basically, im in a mood...and its confusing cuz in the winter, i blame it on the lack of sun. but what to blame it on now? whatever, things pass. anyway, what i came here to talk about was something more important. like life. no im kidding. i havent written in this bitch in a while. mainly cuz theres nothing to write about and you would all die from boredom. ha! im so original. ok well, the days before the end of school are numbered and i dont know what to feel. im happy because the end of hell is coming, but the beginning too. isnt that awesome. im so fucking good at metaphors! jaykay. i mean..finals will soon be over, and grades will be done..and i donno. i think my life revolves around my grades. honestly, everything seems shitty right now because of my grades. and when i get good grades, even shit isnt shitty. HAHAHA! im awesome. ugh. but then the seniors are leaving. and thats just bollocks. if that makes sense. i guess it wont. im not setting myself up for some long distance connections with these people, but i try to tell myself that i might see them again and it wont be too weird. people are sucking lately. or am i the only one that feels that way. im just so sick of everyone. i wanna stick them all in a soundproof room and let them yak and yak and i wouldnt hear them cuz im so sick of people just yackety yacking. ugh. and i hate people who prioritize differently when theyre around different people. im not gonna explain this, dont ask me to. most people i know dont know the difference between to and too and thats just disgusting if you ask me. but nobody did so i guess that doesnt really matter. ps. dying friendships are no fun to deal with. i wish there could be something to dull out the awkwardness of trying to maintain a friendship, no matter how good it used to be, instead of practicing all these fake niceties that make me want to projectile vomit into..something. to solve this, i propose we instate a contract-like thing between friends. it can be renewed or ended at any given point, it just makes it a lot easier rather than in the end having some stupid parting-of-the-ways conversation. and people really need to fucking learn to take some things a little more fucking seriously instead of disregarding everything and sdgl dfgjk;dfh gk;jh!!!!!!!1 now im mad. (5 minute break) i know im not making sense and im not using proper grammar or vocabulary but im ranting so mehh. i also hate falling out of favor with people. i dont know how else to put it. maybe im paranoid. maybe im not. i hate it and thats that. im in the mood for something uber funky right now, i dont know what or why or who. im just sick of this stupid nothingness. i was debating whether i would prefer to live in modern-day england, or america in the 70's. it was a tough decision but if you consider the fact that jews are hardly welcome anywhere in europe, 70's america is peachy. even without the jews thing, i know i wouldnt fully appreciate living in the 70's but i still wish thats when i spent my teenage years. i sound 80. the 70s were so fuckin awesome though. they had everything. and mad style yo. damn, everything sucks. lets go home and watch mtv (mtv commercial). suck suck puck tuck ruck buck much huck finn hin rin tin tin kin bin.