so basically i havent written anything in here in a couple months and i must say, my lifes been kind of unfullfilled becuase of it. i really dont have any purpose in writing except for the fact that i need distraction from thinking about how badly i want to bang the shit out of a certain someone. today was upsetting, except for a good math grade which my life revolves around. but i wasted a good hair day (in my opinion) on letting my hair rot in my house cuz im too lazy to go anywhere. girls suck a lot, i dont understand them and the way they act and treat their friends. i honestly think im more like a guy than a girl. except for the whole penis thing but thats besides the point...guys have it so much easier. i hate them, and i hate girls, and like omg, i like hate like everyone. my parrot is annoying the shit out of me. not like i actually go near him, but when i hear him shreiking across the house cuz hes lonely i want to throw him against the wall and cook him for dinner. theres absolutely nothing on tv. and im sick of family guy. ive watched like 69696 episodes in the last 3 hours and im pretty sure my brain has fallen out during that time. im really hungry, but im borderline fat, but im lazy. so i guess im just not supposed to eat. i really want some ass. like on a plate, or wherever. but not just any ass. i want a specific ass. yah! i think im doing something good this week, aside from the fact that i have 7.23 thousand dosctor appointments for my fucking nose. i wish i could just fall of the stairs and break it myself and just get it sorted out instead of having to get it professionally broken. because it takes over my face and i just dont really like that. i think mrs. gothelf looks like a toad. im really pissed. cuz im a stupid douchebag. i need courage. i need to go to emerald city to meet the wizard of oz for some courage. i think my life would be a lot better if i was 4 inches taller. short people are a waste of space. ive said this before and ill say it again, im really sorry for wasting your air guys. feminism is ridiculous. feminists need to shut up and accept the fact that women suck. i would never even consider talking back to the superior gender. jaykay! im kidding, i just burned my bras. im not making sense, im such an idiot. ive never regreted anything until this weekend. ive always gone by 'everything happens for a reason.' even when my cousin was pummeled by that stupid truck, i still thought, its ok, he died for a reason. but now something so stupid DOESNT happen and im flipping out about it. im crazy. girls are fucking CRAZY. i was going to say peace out niggers..but then i reconsidered. because after that assembly today, i realized that i have no more hate. my life has changed, im reformed, and i no longer dislike lebsians. if you took all of this perfectly seriously youre a stupid douchebag, kill yoself!