im not going to go on an emotional rant or anything, but i just need to say that...to say the least, i am not happy with my life right now. but i realize that it's meant to be this way. and if it's meant to be this way, then i just have to let it be. i just really really don't like it. but what can i do. i try to think of ways to get out of this but i guess there's nothing i can do until it's meant to be over. fate fate fate. ponder ponder. people are disappointing, but i guess i'm disappointing to many people too. i disappoint myself. i'm a failure and a waste of life and space and air. i'm sorry for hogging all of your O2 guys. i'll try my best not to use up so much of your air anymore. i'll probably go listen to some aimee mann or elliott smith right now just because i'm sure that they knew exactly how i'm feeling. sorry for the melodrama. blah blah.