the most important thing to happen in my life in a while has been jay winning project runway. i wrote him my first ever celebrity fan mail. i might just hang it on my wall instead of sending it...as a monument to me doing something i have always thought to be completely RIDICULOUS. i say that in caps because no one seems to know how to spell the word ridiculous. people read with their eyes closed or something because THEY NEVER EVER NOTICE THE SPELLING OF THINGS. that or theyre still reading dr. seuss' 'hop on pop'. in which case, i say, carry on. and if you think about the title 'hop on pop' for too long, certain implications become pretty obvious and im forced to wonder whether or not mr. seuss was, in fact, a bit pervy. a while ago, i was told to find something good..and do it a lot..when i felt like this. and i have. its magical and mind numbing and fun and exciting and completely wonderful. god i love solitaire. ha ha. im hysterical. all funniness aside, i have been playing a ridiculous amount of solitaire as of late. you'd think i would choose a more stimulating game to keep me occupied for many hours at a time, but no. i've chosen solitaire. not trying to be the kidder that i am here, im being serious when i say that i think its becoming a borederline addiction. now and then i alternate solitaire with my electronic yahtzee, but somehow it always comes back to the solitaire. i think yahtzee is just too disappointing for me to handle sometimes. the whole idea of not even getting a yahtzee in a game is truly heart-brеaking and i cant withstand that pain for long periods of time. but i think my pupils or something that sounds as funny as 'pupils' and is eye related..is/are getting messed up. the computer screen isblurring up in front of me as we..i..speak. or maybe thats normal. anyway, i smell like mexican food in case you were wondering.