last night, i worked with Kim at the diner, 5-8pm lame than were rushed to go home to get changed, than get to Shogun for our 8:30 reservation after we got home at 8:10. Mike and Sean got to Shogun ten minutes later than Kim and me, which i think should have been the other way around. the hibatchi was super fabulous, and the food was muy delicioso : ] the ride home, a full moon appeared in the car in front of us, ahahah. today, first day of band fcuking camp. goal of the day - finsish the first song field show, along with playing. it probably would've helped if the guy responsible for desiging the field show knew how to do it right, with the correct amount of people the first time. so we spent the first two hours in sectionals, bull shitting time with the first song. snack, outside and spend an hour and a half rearranging opening set. lunch time, two more hours of sectionals. i was about to lose my tolerance for a few of them who think they can do whatever the fcuk they want. biggest waste of my time ever. than back outside for an hour only to get the second movement in. how lame? it'd be nice if people would explain to me how to read the damn charts instead of just placing everyone themselves, i'm not going to be able to do it myself if you don't teach me. not my fault though. enough of band camp. Mike and i went to target< 3 after band to return some stuff and buy some more. we saw Jenni and her mommy : ] than we went to Freehold mall with Sean, Kim, and Mark after waiting a half hour for Mark to get there. so i planned on buying some jeans if i found cheap ones, but i've got two problems. one, i refuse to pay $50 for ONE pair of jeans. i could if i wanted to waste the money i've collected in the past month but that'd be a waste i think. and second, why does everyone have to be so skinny? it makes me feel so uncomforotable with myself, like i'm 89098374 pounds. i'm so self conscious, dumbest thing ever but i can't help it : [ so after failing in pac sun, i gave up and didn't even try in Hollister even though i love that store. everyone around me made me feel gross, so whatever. on the way home and earlier tonight, i had the worst pain i have ever felt in my life. it started out on my left side, a sharp pain. but then it moved into my stomach and eventually my lower chest, i don't know exactly where, i'm not a doctor. but i was fast breathing and it felt like air going through my body, than just hurt. the only way it would stop is if i layed down, so sleep sounds good soon. than dumb band camp again : [ than Mike ♥ last nigggggggggght lkdfjasklfjlsdfjsdfjskdf god, i am going to be a mess. i don't even want to think about it, so good night.