i feel so shitty right now. i am on the edge with myself right now. i look at myself and i just don't understand. i'm average. i eat well minus some chocolate. but it's not good enough. i just want to stop eating because that's the only way i'll get to where i want to be. i'm not comfortable with myself and i need to be. and forget about prom. i don't want to go dress shopping anymore cuase it's so goddamn depressing for me. then my mom gets pissed that i'm pissed. ughhasdkja i don't even know.