lame. for once, i don't think it's me. everyone assumes my reaction when they've never given me a chance to have a reaction. i wouldn't get mad, i wouldn't stop you, i would be concerned for you. i may not agree, but i'm not here to tell you or anyone wat to do or wat not to do. i've never told anyone they can't do something, i'm not a mother. i feel like i've told some people too much because they obviously don't trust me as much as i trust them. maybe my thoughts, feelings, and everything i talk about are unwelcome. i thought i had a close friend who both could share anything and everything with, i thought that was a mutual understanding and feeling, but i was wrong. i need to stop being so picky with my friends and stop trusting everyone i feel i get close with, because it's a waste of time. it's hard to say what i want to do in this situation.. friendship is never the same without trust, no matter how much fun it is, it isn't complete without trust. at least for me. better note, Mike got me a valentine, "even better than that" he said. ♥ i'm excited, i have never had a real valentine or gotten a valentine or anything cute from anyone beside my daddy which i don't mind, but this year < 3333333 and there's no one else i would have rather it be. duh, he's my soul mate since i saw him that day at band camp my freshman year. i'm pretty lame, but look where that crush got me. luckyluckylucky :) no more junk food, it's pretty sweet but two seconds later you feel like shit but you're too lazy to go to the gym. fuck you sugar, calories, sodium, wattttever.