second update of the day. i'm that awesome. i hung out with this boy cory today for the first time. we rented dawn of the dead even though he's seen it a gazillion times. he was fun and funny, but i'm scared to like him. i always rush into everything and then i scare myself and can't do it anymore. i think it partly has to do with the person not being mike, and he's my comfort zone and i've never found anyone i want to get that close with. so i don't know, we'll see. and there's that blonde haired boy at school, oh my god. i think about boys too much. but i need one to have fun wiith. that's probably not good to say or want. whatever, i'm young and i want to have fun. so goddamnit give me a hot boy.