lately i feel like he doesn't want me around much. i'm scared i'm going to be left alone for school and that i'm going to lose everything again. i don't want my world to be repetative anymore, i need stability. and i had faith in him, but i feel like he's lost his passion from our last new begining. i'm just scared, and i need to cry. but i wish i could talk to him about it. online conversations never begin or end well, so i'll have to wait for tomorrow. i'm just sad right now. but he always sees that as a weakness, although i believe i'm a pretty strong girl. i don't really know. sometimes i wish he read this. i can never put into words what is on my mind in a comprehendible way, except for in here. he read an entry once, but most likely nothing more. i feel like it would help him understand me a little more, or of how i feel about things.