i am kind of pissed right now. this is why i fucking hate having friends, this is why i seclude myself from the people around me and try to avoid getting close with anyone and everyone. i can't fucking live my own life. SO i had some plans to go up to new brunswick tonight with matt to talk to someday never. and ten minutes before i am about to leave, someone ims me telling me i better have time to hang out tonight cause she's having problems and hyperventilating. and i tell her i have plans with matt, and she starts saying things lik 'screw matt' blahblahblah. so i tell her i'll skip going up there and see her and she tells me to come over in an hour.so apparently she is surviving if i need to go over in an hour. and i hate being there whenever people need me. that sounds shitty, but i want to do things that are fun, i don't like being tied down. and i assume this is about her ex who she despises and wishes him out of her life, but always talks about him to EVERYONE. and i think it's about one of her friends still talking to him, but if she introduced them when they were together, it's not the persons fault they still get along. she's over dramatic too. goddamn. i'm not trying to trash her, but some things i just can't take. and i can't tell her she's being too dramatic cause i've heard stories of her saying things of her other friends saying that and that didn't go over too well for them. fuckingshit. you can call me selfish, i don't care. i don't want to live my life for someone else.