i always feel like a close friend of mine secretly despises me, but doesn't say anything. i guess i make myself sort of dependant on people so she would feel bad if i knew about it, but i can't force someone to like me and be friends with me. i'm not sure really.. today was the last day of HSPAs, exciting. track after school was good :) than i rushed home, rushed to get ready and went to the short hills mall with kim and anthony's little sister. basically, i didn't see the reason for going because the dresses are a ton of money that i don't have and i was nervous about meeting his sister because i'm not good at meeting new people :( but it all turned out really well, and danielle was fun and dress shopping was pretty successful. i found two dresses i really liked. one was a strapless, brown with a dark green based pattern sort of flowy material which covered all of the brown material except for a v in the front. and the second one was a royal blue, satin gown with a halter with turquoise, light blue, and purple rhinestones just like i had wanted :) so i really want that one, but it was really expensive and i would get it tailored or watever cause i want it shorter lol soo, it was a lot of fun and i had the two best cookies ever, yay. uhm so that was it, and i have a ton of hw to do and i am extremely tired at the moment :( mike comes home tomorrow ♥ i hope it doesn't rain so we don't have indoor practice for track, i would cry. i'm apparently not going to see the play now.. that's cool i guess..