okay, so i'm dead tired but this is pissing me off and i need to ramble all of this shit out. k so i met this girl yesterday at work and i decided i liked her. she's fun and she's easy to get along with. but then she flipped off nicole for no reason, and she was talking about hanging out with all of the ortley boys. but i liked that they invited me out with them, and we hung out on the ramp at night. and nicole and i are selfish and we like our boys to be ours. so anyway apparently the girl had been invited out with them also a night or two ago, but none of them were there. and this morning she texted me at work telling me tom had talked to her and told her that him and his girlfriend broke up and they were already planning a sex date. so it's a little self explanitory. she texted me tonight telling me they kissed. and i want to be mad, but i'm just jealous becuase i had feelings for him and he had feelings for me, but she doesn't know that. so it's kind of like a slap in the face. but i'm happy for her because i think she needs something or someone there for her. i know she's scared of him turning out to be an ass, and i'm crossing my fingers that he isn't since i never found out if he is or not. mother fucker i shouldn't care about this because i'm happy with mike. he makes me whole, but pisses the shit out of me sometimes. except he's been acting shady lately, but that's probably just through my eyes. haahsdashdaslkj LOVE.