i've neve felt so insecure, like such a failure. it's so hard, i can't take it much longer. i need to start accepting who i am and be thankful for the ones who accept it too. and everyone who doesn't, than i shouldn't care cause they're not worth my time. life's lessons, UGH. i just want to get past this one then i'll believe i have more of a chance of surviving. i thought life was supposed to be FUN, not complicated. thank God for my swedish fishy & mike ♥ and jenni even though i didn't talk to her tonight, but she would have made me feel better if she was here :]