as much as i complain about some of the things that mike does, i wouldn't want anyone else. and i think that as much as he might complain about some of the things i do, he's happy with me. we learn to deal with the things we don't like about each other and love each other still. we've grown so much over time and learning to live with our imperfections. and because of this i feel we are happier and our trust is stronger. i'm not as paranoid and distrustful, and i'm not scared anymore. i love him to death, every part of him, every smile, every bone, every kiss, every breath, every mood, every unnecessary last word, every lazy day of his. he may not be the best guitar player or singer, but i wouldn't rather listen to anyone else. i feel like he likes playing for me, and that makes me happy. his bed frame is broken so took it apart last night. now his bed is just two mattresses on top of each other. we ordered pizza and after we were done eating i wanted him to come lay with me so i turned over on his bed and opened my arms and told him to come lay with me. i rolled over not realizing the bed ended and i completely fell off onto his taken apart bed frame. that honestly made my night. i have my school orientation tomorrow until monday afternoon. i think it's stupid that they are making it a social thing. i just want to set up my classes and be done with it. i don't need that awkward feeling of being alone without anyone i know. and they're trying to make it like a real night at college but it's stupid because it's not. we don't need to stay the night, they could have easily made the orientation a one day thing. maybe this is just my nerves talking. hopefully i won't get lost for two hours on the way home.