so i realize i'm growing up, and when you grow up birthdays are not nearly half as fun as they used to be. i'm not selfish, and i don't need materialistic things. but it's just weird not getting presents from really anyone. especially not from mike. i realize he doesn't have money, but he could have done something little. like burn me a cd of the playlist we had awhile ago. it's just weird.i got money from a few people but i feel bad being given people's money. hm i don't know. and it didn't help that my mom's alcoholism was obvious during the entire day and night.