i always thought that being in a relationship would also mean having feelings like being special, and important, and appreaciated, and happy stuff like that. sometimes, but rare. i'm sarcastically happy that diets work, and that i keep up my excercise. i'm not obese, and i don't want to look annorexic, i just want to be comforotable. but i don't make the difference in my lifestyle to change my appearance, maybe for a day the most. i feel really lame today, and i've been acting really lame for the past few days.