thursday

by ninjalovex
didn't take advantage of the oppourtunity to quit work when i had the chance. nick called, i agreed to work sunday at seven. i felt so guilty, and didn't say anything : i feel so immature that i can't open my mouth. whatever, tomorrow will be the day. band was lame, i don't care anymore. people are assholes that need to grow up. jenni's sleeping over again. god, i don't know how to get rid of her. no, i'm just kidding i LOVE her< 3 Mike made my night a thousand times better : ) we talked about school this year, and college. and i'm going to do so good this year, and get more involved. i want to get into a good college SO bad. maybe i'll even be able to go to school with Mike< 3 haha, i doubt it but anything is possible. i don't even know if i'd want to go there cause i have no idea what i want to do with my life. mmmm, the whole point of this paragraph - i love Mike and he makes me happier than i've ever been ♥ that is all, i must sleep and dream pretty dreams : )
Read 14 comments
it frustrated me that you weren't understanding. & the fact that i knew you wouldn't understand, but you wanted to keep knowing more, pissed me off because i get pissed off easily. and also the part where YOU said that i "obvisouly didn't know you"...really hurt.
and yeah, I WAS THE ONE THAT SAID BYE because I was the one in the bad mood in the first place, & i didn't feel like talking to ANYBODY at the time...
& by the way, i'm sorry for being bitchy.

but you being a smart ass in the comment you wrote me was uncalled for.
you basically repeated the same thing in the last comment.
JENN, I ALREADY KNOW THAT I WAS THE ONE TO SAY BYE BECAUSE I WAS THE ONE WHO DIDN'T WANT TO TALK ANYMORE.
and you KNOW i don't like telling people things, i never do. but you always ask me about it, thank you for being a GOOD FRIEND. but if i HONESTLY don't think you would understand, then leave it as that. because you honestly wouldn't have..and you were TRYING to
but you still weren't understanding, so it frustrated even more because you, being a GOOD FRIEND, tried to figure out more..but i didn't want you to because it frustrated me that i ALREADY KNEW that you wouldn't understand, and you werent.

you are being a fucking bitch about this whole thing.
"but ok, blame it on me..."
like i'm blaming it on you in the first place? when I TOLD YOU in the commetn that i left you, this was MY FAULT...
NOTICE HOW I'M TAKING THE BLAME?
i'm serisouly sick of this. YOU ARE PUTTING WORDS INTO MY MOUTH. I NEVER SAID THAT YOU SAID THAT YOU DIDN'T CARE. so don't go putting words into my mouth. and if you want to stop caring about me, fine. thats your decision. i still care about you, but i can't force you to care for someone. which i'm sure you still do care about me, but if you dont awnt to-then dont. and i know i've never acted this way before, BECAUSE WE HAVE NEVER BEEN IN
A FIGHT BEFORE. so you haven't seen this side of me.
and no, i've NEVER been frustrated with you. you KNOW me. i know you do. and you know that when i don't like someone, i'm not going to be fake and be like OH HI, HOW ARE YOU?! WE'RE BEST FRIENDS YAY!
if i didn't like you, i never would have talked to you. we wouldn't be best friends.
i apologized the second time i commented you. yet you continue fighting with me. i APOLOGIZED for
being bitchy. and i STILL AM sorry for being bitchy. but i don't know what to say back to you when you keep fireing back at me with these assumptions that you think i was always frustrated with you and never todl you? i dont know where the fuck you would get that idea but its bullshit. you are the most important thing in my life next to surfing and food. you SHOULD know that...i've told you that you meant the world to me and are the best friend
i've ever had.

at least you should know that. because i know i've told you many times before.
i'm sorry.
AGAIN.
and if you can't accept this apology, or the other ones i've given you...then i guess you just don't want to accept it...(obvisouly) and we won't be friends? i'll leave you alone if thats what you want. and if thats what you want...then fine.
i love you and thank you for being the best friend i've ever had.
i honestly don't know what to say to you anymore. i apologized more than three times, AND i told you this whole thing was my fault. and you still want to just say "you weren't acting like yourself." yes i know that i wasn't acting like myself, i wasn't in the greatest mood. and the reason i said "way to show that you care" errr whatever i said, was because of your away message, i barley remember it but it said something like you were over
fighting with your close friends and you--lkdsdjlsfhsdiofh

i dont even remember.
this is dumb.
and i told you i was sorry, and if you aren't going to accept it then fine. your choice, because i apologized for being bitchy, having us be lead to this fight, and being dumb.
so its your choice to accept my apology or not.

have a nice day.
TWO homecoming pictures on my sitdiary.
FOUR on my myspace
and a gazillion on my computer.
you know what to do?
I LOVE YOU FLUFFYCUTEFACEBESTFRIENDLOVER♥
OMG I LOVE YOU SO MUCH:]
hi =]
it's elishaaa< 3
on travis's sitdiary.
ahahahha he got one, lmao.
he's crazy.
i love you!