it's raining, and i'm not allowed to go to work. it's terrible. i don't want to get fired. i've decided it's raining because elisha isn't here anymore. ugh. i feel closer to mike than i ever have before. i've been waiting for this for what feels like forever. it still amazes me that with all of the shit we've been through and what we put each other through, that we still somehow end up together. and now, he does the little things that assure me everything is good. it's almost unreal, but i've been expecting it. it's probably weird how i know this is the way life is supposed to be. it's weird for me to be so sure about something because 99% of the time i don't know anything. the world is chaotic and my mind can't comprehend two seconds of it. but i don't mind because life is close to perfect feeling right now. swedishfish♥