i can't live without him, i honestly can't. he's the only one i could ever live with. he's the one i know i could live with, and couldn't live without. i hate that we can't ever get it right though. i need him to open up and trust me, and then i can trust him. all of the fights that have ever built to our breakdowns were never worth it. i feel like i repeat myself in my promises though, and nothing ever changes. maybe something else needs to change. i need to figure it out though because i can't focus and i need to. there's only nine days left of school, and i have no motivation to do shit. and this is just not helping. i really just don't know what to do with myself. writing this is keeping me from going insane right now and wripping down walls. i really need something stable in my life, because right now there's nothing.