yesterday i had a nice breakdown. i almost convinced myself that i didn't want to go away for college next year. i almost convinced myself that i would go to occ to live at home, and i'd work at b&b all year. i don't know why, i was just letting my worst get the best of me. but this all changed after i went for my placement testing at rider today. my parents were working so i had to go by myself for my math and writing placement tests. i got there fine, got my student id picture taken which i was unaware of and looked messy today. there was time before the test so a boy matt took a few of us on a tour. the writing test was about living life without regret and how we are where we are today because of yesterday. four paragraphs based off of a three line poem. so after the writing we had lunch, which was actually not bad. i found myself a table with a few girls who looked friendly and ate with them. a girl andi and i were talking and decided to go to the bookstore because some girl was being weird and we got bored. after the bookstore we went to the student rec center and talked to a girl who told us stories of her hating her room mate. and that's when we had the genius idea of rooming together. so that's wat we did. after the math test, which you couldn't use calculators for by the way, we went to residence life and requested each other :) now i am excited as hell to go to school and i'm almost positive we're going to be perfect room mates. i told mike i couldn't be with him today. this is a never ending cycle and i wish it wasn't like this, but for whatever reason it is the way it is. eventually i'll be able to follow through. jake is i don't know. i just wouldn't be able to handle him, sadly. i just realized i have a recitation due tomorrow. along with my collage for psych i didn't start. and i have to read another story for english, and study for my efa essay final. and my spanish presentation is on the 31st. i love school. by the way, where the fuck are you elisha? i miss you tons.