from the second i woke up, i couldn't handle the day. i woke up to an emotional breakdown and a realization this house is not too short of completely miserable. the day went on, and mike came over. it was nice to see him and get a smile on my face to forget things around me. i try not to burden him with things that go on here because i don't want to spread the negativity. so i spent the day with him and it was nice. kim wanted to go to target, but i was there the other day and there was nothing that interested me so i didn't go, not realizing what effect this would have later on tonight. so we went to his house and i felt close to him today, just a healthy passion that i needed to feel. kim texted me wen i was coming home, i didn't know asked why she was wondering but never got a response. so i went back to our nap, until i got hungry. alyssa had texted me an hour earlier while i was sleeping but it was too late for me to go out with her since she had already gone. so dan came over and we were going to go out with him until kim called and asked me to come home. so john dropped me off and i came home to being told that mike treats me like shit, and everything. i am not blind, i see everything he does and how he treats me. i just can't handle it. it was repeated to me about twenty times, but i don't need to hear it that many times. i'm sitting here dumbfounded, not knowing what to say to anyone to fix things. and on the tv there is a man from the military who can't even open his mouth to speak his mind. and i feel like my words are wasted on things that don't really matter. he can't move his body in any way that he would like, he has people to move his body for him. and i feel like i take everything in this world for granted. this world just doesn't make sense. why can't everyone be happy?