it's a fucked up world that we live in. we never think these things will happen to us, but one day it will. my heart goes out to the people at virginia tech, and all the other tragedies that sadly, slowly fade away with time. one day we'll learn to live at peace with each other. i need anger management. i still get jealous and enraged thinking about certain things dealing with him. i need it to stop, i don't want to care anymore and i don't want to think about him. it wasn't good enough to be worthy of staying in my mind, and it isn't healthy for me to have it linger there still. i'm sick of this town and the people in it. i don't want to gossip, but it seems with some people it is inevitable. i need to learn that i don't have to gossip just because i'm with a certain person or people. cute boy today. i think i want the people i can't have. hopefully that theory will be proven wrong soon, maybe with this boy.