Well my mood went from horrible because of school to really great back to horrible. Here: It all started at lunch today. It was weird. Lasesne and I talked like the whole time, but yet I still felt like a loser. Usually at lunch I write Catherine a letter. I've failed to mail any of the three letters i've written her. I just like to write them and tell her a/b my day and stuff. It's as if I'm actually talking to her. Since I don't have any friends at school it's nice to pretend like I have someone. Then in PE we had to run as many times as we could before we felt like passing out. I only ran 28 while all the pretty skinny girls ran like 60. It sucks. Popularity isn't that big of a deal to me. I just wish I had some friends. But then Dedra called me! and told me a/b me and hannahs tap duet which is on wednesdays. It was very comforting/nostalgic to hear Dedra smacking her gum. I can't wait for Broadway Bound to start! But then during me and Hannahs hyped up talk a/b New York City and our duet, someone who shall remain nameless decided to tell me that i'm ugly, well not in so many words. She told me that i should fix my hair and wear more makeup and cuter clothes and be more outgoing at school. She told me she didn't mean it critically, but how is that NOT critical? How am I not supposed to take that in offense? God knows I'm too shy to be outgoing. And I can't help the fact I'm ugly. FUCK! sorry i never use that word but right now i feel like saying it, no i feel like screaming it at the top of my lungs. I am now going to go to bed self concious, sad, and pissed. GREAT! Isn't life just grand?