Today school was boring. NOTHING eventful happened. Tonight, I went over to Leslie's house, then Rockaways, then we went to the heathwood jamboree. I loved seeing everyone from CN. Molly, Meg, Jamie, Calle, Leslie, and I talked a/b how we're better dressers than certain people, and how we're "natural beauties" hahaha. Drew made fun of me for using the word conformist too much, and some other things, and said it was because of S.C. Public School Education hahaha. I love drew, he's soooo funny. I got to see HIM. The one. He actually talked to me a little bit. I was shocked at myself for the feelings I still have, for the fact that I still like him. It's scary. I hate it. I thought since I wasn't physically near him anymore, maybe the feelings would go away, but I was wrong. It's okay. I'm not sad, or anything. It was bittersweet to see him, very nostalgic. Being at a football game, trying my hardest to look all cool and nonchalant, trying not to choke on my words when talking to him,trying to impress him, trying not to notice him staring at another girl, that distant, noninterested look in his eyes when talking to me. But again, I'm really not sat, which is weird. I expected to come home sad, but I'm not. Parts of me miss that, that control he had over me. The way he was what I lived for for two years of my life. What a waste of time, but yet I wouldn't change it. I would never take back that feeling i got in my stomach when he was near me, what it felt like to slow dance with him, even if it wasn't mutual, it was still something to remember, something to treasure. Well, That's really all I have haha. BYE BYE BYE