Well, I didn't plan on another one of these entries. It wouldn't have happened, had I not read Hannah's most recent entry. It just sort of caused some emotions to let free. Here I am now with the tears literally rolling down my face, my throat closing in, it's over. God knows I miss BBB more than anything. I try to ignore the feelings everyday. I try not to feel weird because I watch the video frequently, sing the songs around the house, and even mumble "goin steady goin steady goin steady for good" in the hallways at school...how insane! I try not to think of the butterflies I got everynight, not right before I went onstage, but the second I hit the stage...dun dun dun dun goin steady goin steady. The other day I listened to the soundtrack and closed my eyes, trying to remember exactly what I was doing during that song. Right before Telephone Hour:Abby grabbing me and telling me "energy!energy!". Avoiding getting kicked in the head by abby, but failing once. After that song, running throught shop, dropping my phone in the little bucket, quickly undressing as I ran up the stairs, exlaiming to someone how much fun it was. I remember getting that stupid sign with Mackenzie, then we would go stand behind Cathy smiling and posing as the perfect daughters, and she would turn around and say "my babies, you look so pretty tonight". I remember my name being Martha Louise Stewart every night except for the last night when I was Martha Louise Staroftheshow. One boy, my favorite song would start up, and Mack and I would stand in the wing, Mack singing along sometimes. We would wait in anticipation for Trey to fall, and without fail everynight we would laugh. Honestly Sincere: What can I say? When we started blocking this number, I didn't really like it very much. But once we did it with an audience, it was soo energetic and fun. I remember grabbing Alexx's hand right before we went on, squeezing tightly, and then bursting out on stage "I can't wait to see Conrad!". All the screaming and oohing and ahhing never got boring for me. And then once the dance sequence started, I was overwhelmed with this feeling. I would literally start to laugh I was having so much fun. It had complete power of me, being on the stage, it made me happy. Ed Sullivan: Not much to say a/b this song. Someone skipped it everynight, even I did a few times. Once intermission rolled around, I would get amanda to go get me a milky way. Then Abby, Katie, me, and different people everynight would sit on the other side of the mirrors, Abby playing tetris on my phone, Katie calling Abby's dad "ugly head". Then Mack and I would meet up in the wings,waiting to go on for "lot of livin". We'd get our "photobooth", comment on the annoyance caused by Garrett, do our secret handshake, talk a/b how she needed to pee and my idea of how we would start this song. Everynight right before we went on when they were singing "broadwy lights" she'd look over at me and say "ready?", I'd say yes, she'd pull the curtain back and we were on stage. Clapping, Singing, Dancing. We'd finish the song off with the dreaded "ooooooos" as we went up the aisle. The rest of the show doesn't have any specific memories. Just a bunch of backstage stuff. Inside jokes, arguments, everything. I'm not trying to copy Hannah with this entry because it may seem that way. The only reason I wrote it the same day she wrote hers is because hers caused such emotions. I miss Bye Bye Birdie so much. Everyone. Everything. Every song. Every line, even Mae's loong boring monologues. I miss it all. What I would do for one more night of it.